I am suffering with an extreme case of "de ja vous" syndrome  every time I go to say something or actually blurt it out, I'm left wondering "hmmm have I said this before"   I suppose it's normal for that to happen occasionally but with me it's happening with almost every sentence.

 This feeling is most likely a side effect from excessive drug use!!  

 I can't even get a simple letter box trip right,  you grab the mail, bring it inside and pass it to the owner of the mail.....  Well that's how it usually works but I somehow lost the mail, even a search through the bin didn't bring it back to the surface!

Took a total blow to the ego yesterday...  Tried to do the friendship thing with Craig by visiting another "couple"  who have moved into our area....  I looked super cute, denim mini skirt, pretty top and spunky make-up but while we were visiting, Craig chose to drool over the female half of this friendly couple who was dressed in fricking pyjamas!!!

I kept my cool in their presence, forced the fake smile and told Craig to grab his shit cos' we're going now!!  I've had a talk to Craig about it since then but of course he wasn't looking at anyone else but me,  *cough cough bullshit*